Anger management is a big problem for many people, and apparently, I’m among them. I’m not saying that I can’t handle myself when I’m angry, but it’s just too much especially if you have other things that you need to take care of, and one of the most affect is my work, so I needed to find a way to control my anger so as to continue being efficient in what I have to do for a living.

 

There are certain things that make my mood change in a bad way, and this certainly affects my work due to its nature. However, if I am angry, I cannot just make the day pass so that I could go on with what I’m doing, as everyday is essential so I could pay for our monthly expenses such as the bills, rental, and food, as well as for emergency purposes, which is why I needed some way to keep my cool and relax for a second, and smoking definitely helps with soothing the weight that brings me down.

 

Whenever I am angry, I simply light up a cigarette, and it’s as if part of the heaviness that I feel is taken away, although most often than not, the effect is just temporary. Nevertheless, it is quite helpful that I have a few sticks of cigarettes lying around the table so when I don’t feel good about something, I could easily pick up a cigarette, light it up, and exhale the smoke it produces along with the things that had made me lose my cool.

 

It is so easy to just smoke and think that your problem is somehow relieved, but then you’ll return to the real world facing the issues that you’ve left unresolved. I have already reduced the number of sticks I smoke everyday, but these problems that make me feel bad worsens my habit of smoking, which is why I sometimes wish that I was using an electronic cigarette to get some relief from the harshness of life. I really wanted to have an electronic cigarette because I don’t want my family to have problems because of me in the future, as I know that it’ll only bring me frustration with the habit that I should’ve broken years ago. Today, I still smoke, although they’re real ones and not the less harmful electronic cigarettes, and I don’t about other people, but this was one thing that helps me manage my anger so it may be quite a while before I could really quit smoking for good.

 

Also check out my other post (http://aiyeenpark.multiply.com/journal/) on cigarettes.